A grand title, I know. I do not mean me, my life, or my story so far. You are joining me at a time in my life when I have had enough of the insanity. Insanity, as a friend from AA reminded me recently, is continuing to do the same thing over and over and over and expecting different results. This journey begins on February 28, 2010 – a Sunday. I woke up and said for the 1,000th time, “Lord, please help me stop my drinking. Why do I do this?”
The time had come – I have known for many a year that I was an alcoholic, yet I was afraid to voice it lest people think less of me. Those that knew me well enough – those the closest to me, those that I love, and those that love me – well, they knew it too. Most of that day, Sunday, I loafed around the house. I did some research on the internet to find local meetings of Alcoholics Anonymous and found well over 50 meetings a week in my area. I attended the first meeting after my ten+ year hiatus away from my initial foray into AA on Monday, March 1st. Today is the 13th. I have attended eleven meetings since then and have found a sense of peacefulness that I would not have thought possible only a few weeks ago.
I should say that I do not expect a miracle “cure”, nor do I think that a few meetings will solve my problems. You will hear more about my problems as we go on, I’m sure, but I hope to share with you my sobriety as well. You might think that I am an ambitious “non-drinker” now since I have run right out and gotten a fancy domain name and gone to all the trouble to setup this website. Yes, I am ambitious about a lot of things, I know. It is one of my character defects. I am an ambitious drinker too. What you are reading now, though, is an alternative to me drinking.
Thanks for reading, and thanks for helping me to not drink today.
dan